I just want to be a quiet programmer.

I'm near 30 years old now. I have known well that some dreams of mine can't come true, and I am not able to do well about some things, such as I can't be one of top sales because of my character. I didn't like to be a programmer yesterday and before,  even
I didn't know which jobs I can do well. I feel so depressed, which is no use. Now, I think maybe I'm able to be a good programmer. Keep on studying. Study everyday, solve more problems in my daily work, and I will be an experienced and excellent programmer,
which I can feel satisfied with the achievement and I can get a high salary so that I can buy a house in Shenzhen. Goal will never be achieved by just saying. Do what you say. So I want to start to study, then keep them in my CSDN blogs. 

    I'm interested in English now and when I went to middle school, but not include my university days. I want to learn it well too, So I will write blogs in English. Try to make notes every day here. 

    Just say something with those who understand me.